I have a chaos in my heart, I’ve got to let it out at least once a week otherwise I end up on the 5 o’clock news so, you can catch me on the street speaking in tongues for just about anyone. I’ll be screaming-crying-fainting for Fat Elvis and Frank Sinatra’s son, I don’t even care if it’s the real one.

I’m never myself not even when I’m by myself so I’m always myself, that’s the thing. I live ethereally, not because things don’t mean anything to me, I’m just really bad with technology, I can’t back anything up.

I could be a bum with you, live in a van, smoke dog tails we find off the sidewalk call that living off the land, yeah, I could live off of love and cigarette butts with someone like you for at least 3-6 months, max, then I gotta scat.

I have 15 sweet things to say, I think I’ll give you 3, then I’m gonna hold the rest close to my chest till you say something sweet to me. You know I can make meals stretch at least a week – why do you never say anything sweet to me?

I’m going down to Angie’s Diner, gonna have breakfast at the counter, zone out on the television. 5 dead and 8 injured in a school shooting. The waitress knows my name but she calls me sweetie. Warms me up when I’m a few sips in, she warms me up to the brim when I’m only a few sips in.

Well bless her heart. Hallelujah and all that jazz. Cuz these days when I look in the mirror, all I see is a half a glass of water, and a bag of chips. Yeah, lately I really do be feeling like a B-rate, cupcake, weekday, raté, underpaid, half-baked, parttime, backup, cameo, carnival star. I’m picking up night shifts at Dave’s Lanes cuz I’m saving up for a husband, a wife, a dog, a yard, and a car.

Sophia Lucia is an experimental poet, performer, and musician, currently based out of Chicago, USA & Paris, FR. She recently performed as a featured poet for Glastonbury Festival in June 2025 and will perform as a featured poet for Shambala Festival this August 2026. Her work has been recently featured in literary magazines such as FILTHY GLO, Juste Millieu, The Space In Between, Open Sewers Collective, and Figwort.